After a long time i don’t feel hungry today.
For three days,
I am not taking shower at afternoon.
Last two days were evening,
Today i just had a nice shower before sleep.
After a long time I am sleepy today.
I had this habit of sleeping early,
Eating early, waking up early and other healthy stuff.
Which was gone for some reason,
Maybe i should blame my allergy medication,
Which i had to take for eczema or something like that,
Due to central air conditioning system of my office.
After a long time i am not wearing a bottom wear,
Like the short i wear generally.
I like wearing my knickers,
With a long boys t-shirt, long enough to hide my butt.
I am a bit insecure about the darker shade
Of where my buttock has ended and legs has strated.
Do we have a name for that place?
Or just a darker place maybe.
Though i never know why I am insecure about it.
My breasts doesn’t hurt today,
But the lump thingy is still there.
I am too scared to go to the doctors
Because most certainly he will tell me to wear a bra for support.
I never liked bra.
I don’t like anything touching or holding my breasts.
Sometimes i feel maybe its not my physical discomfort.
Maybe its because I don’t like my breasts.
And Everytime i wear something to support it,
It feels like it’s there.
Like a reminder, of past.
Well that’s my burden to share.
After a long time i am writing about me.
Not my brother.
I am scared, I don’t wanna move on.
I have nothing else but my brother.
Can anyone move on against their will?
Do i have a split personality?
One is overpowering another?
I need to sleep.
After a long time i can’t sleep.
Or its maybe the first time.